Cptsd

  • The Black Dog

    Has started biting again. I am tired of the world today. I feel like a soldier that’s trapped in a never ending war. I can’t keep up with the demands life puts on me. And the people that are meant to come to my rescue are more interested in pushing paper around then actually saving

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  • Both of my children are smart. This combined with their Autism can lead to some….interesting ideas. I’ve always encouraged them to be curious about the world, I believe choosing to be ignorant is the only real sin and that knowledge of all kinds is important. How can you expect your children to make good decisions

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  • You are what you eat.

    I struggle a lot with my weight. I have done since I was very young, having been bullied from an early age for being fat. It’s weird now to look back and realise that I was just a bit chubby with baby fat, not the kind of obesity that I believed that I had. My

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  • To each, their own

    Everyone is an individual. Each person, as unique as a snowflake. The things you love, somebody else probably dislikes. The thing you dislike are possibly as dream come true for another. One man’s trash and all that. But who in the Bazillion people we have on this planet likes Red tape? I seem to spend

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  • General Upgrades.

    What doesn’t seem to be common knowledge is that, with the onset of Mental health conditions, you become increasingly likely to develop certain physical ailments. It’s not just that you immune system is diminished but conditions such as rheumatoid arthritis can become more likely. The mental health condition, depending on the type, has an impact

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  • Add a touch of Fear

    I really struggle with anxiety. It seems to come in so many forms and they all seem to require a different approach to handling them. There’s the constant anxiety that I’m failing. Failing as a Mother, as a Woman, as a human being. The fear that something is going to go wrong, it’s not exactly

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  • I’m a rather introverted person. I like my own company and quiet time. I find most people to be draining, even those I love but I do get lonely sometimes. I struggle to maintain friendships when most of the social obligations for women are way outside of my abilities and too often my friendships with

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  • Lost Time

    I don’t particularly like living with regrets. I don’t suppose anyone does. My biggest regret though has to be how much time I’ve lost to people who didn’t deserve it. I don’t know if the Autism was part of it, but I was quite a late bloomer when it came to attraction and dating. I

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  • The Required Training

    If you have any sort of disorder or difference in ability these words will probably strike fear into your heart. In the case of Mental Health and Neurodivergence this seems to mean that someone has been to a one hour lecture that pointed out that we (Autistics, depressed, differently able people) exist. It might point

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  • Sometimes I think there must be one attached to my Forehead. Some sign saying Idiot or Please Kick Me. I don’t quite know how else to explain my bad luck. There’s still a lot of Stigma and discrimination around Mental Health. I once got told by the lady working in a Charity shop that all

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