My Blog

  • Lost Time

    I don’t particularly like living with regrets. I don’t suppose anyone does. My biggest regret though has to be how much time I’ve lost to people who didn’t deserve it. I don’t know if the Autism was part of it, but I was quite a late bloomer when it came to attraction and dating. I

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  • Every woman has heard how awful hot flushes are, but no one ever told me that my words would just up and disappear. You’ll go to say something and even the most common innocuous words will just be gone from your mind. It started with just forgetting the word itself but synonymous words were OK,

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  • If you have any sort of disorder or difference in ability these words will probably strike fear into your heart. In the case of Mental Health and Neurodivergence this seems to mean that someone has been to a one hour lecture that pointed out that we (Autistics, depressed, differently able people) exist. It might point

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  • I am most definitely Not a child of the Internet age, I missed out by a couple of years. Our school had computers, and we were required to do an ICT course but that mainly centred on using Word, Excel and the Like. We weren’t taught anything about the Internet ( I could be blanking

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  • Karma and Guilt

    I find it hard to form meaningful relationships with people. Some have attributed this to my Autism, if you struggle with socialising it’s hard to get to know someone well enough, and let them get to know you, to form a strong attachment. Others say it’s my CPTSD, having huge trust issues isn’t exactly conducive

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  • Sometimes I think there must be one attached to my Forehead. Some sign saying Idiot or Please Kick Me. I don’t quite know how else to explain my bad luck. There’s still a lot of Stigma and discrimination around Mental Health. I once got told by the lady working in a Charity shop that all

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  • Beauty and the Beast

    Out of all the Disney films of my childhood, I think this one stuck with me the most. Mainly because Belle love books and ever since I’ve wanted a Library like the Beast has in his Castle (and to ride on those rolling ladders!) Sadly, unless I win the lottery, I’m not likely to have

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  • Missing Puzzle Pieces

    When you are diagnosed with a serious or long term illness, whether that’s physical or mental, no one warns you that you end up grieving. I think all of us hold an image in our heads of our future. What it will look like, what WE will be like, 1 year, 5 years, or even

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  • The Incy-Wincy Mite

    Today has been a long day. On top of all my usual issues I’ve found out that I’ve been exposed to, and caught Scabies. Little evil microscopic mites that live in the skin and soft furnishings and make you itchy as hell. Just the thought of them gives me the heebie-jeebies. I’ve never been very

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  • A Grey Day

    There’s many things that I love about the UK. But why does it have to be so overwhelmingly Grey? And it’s not just the weather, although our two seasons of warm rain and cold rain leave a lot to be desired. It’s the towns and Cities as well. It’s like someone has purposefully gone around

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